Friday, May 29, 2015
Wednesday, May 27, 2015
Tuesday, May 26, 2015
I am indeed one year older as of this past Saturday and I hope to make a convincing argument that I am wiser as well…but I will let you decide that for yourself.
Some interesting events this year brought to light some pretty unappealing qualities of me that God and I are working on. One of these I discovered while preparing to go on retreat with Riley. Our topic was influence: how God desires to influence us, how others and media influence us and how we influence others…and what we should do with that power. I was shocked to discover that the manipulative controlling game played by one of the characters in a novel I read in high school had found its way into my marriage. Just in case you are wondering – “manipulative controlling game” should never be associated with marriage. Ever. Marriage is hard enough without someone putting that kind of mess in the middle of it. I was that someone, but I am working on changing that.
I also learned a lot on our epic trip up the east coast with my folks this summer. Helping my mom care for my dad while on vacation this summer was challenging because he is an independent, intelligent adult (who is great company, a fabulous card player, incredibly wise, gracious, fun and generous I might add) who can do everything without assistance. Except when he can’t. I have friends who have cared for and are caring for aging parents who shared this conundrum with me frequently, but the truth is, until I was in the situation where I needed to give help that preserves dignity and independence with love and respect to a parent, I had no idea what they were really talking about. And even after I lived through a small taste of what it is like, I have a hard time describing the experience and the way it has changed me.
I read Hinds Feet on High Places for the first time this year. I know it will be a book I read periodically on my journey along with other classics like, In the Shadow of the Almighty and pretty much anything by C.S. Lewis. My new mentor, Donna, and I are writing a Bible study based on the book, hopefully for the women’s group we attend together. Here is where I frequently learn my hardest lessons: wrestling out the meaning and application for others through Bible study, open-ended questions and introspection. I should know by now that God uses these times to challenge and grow me in unpredictable ways, but it always comes as a surprise. “Surprise! You are still trying to earn my favor by your performance, Kim.” My worth and value is not based on my productivity or performance or what I can do for God (as if he needed anything from me). My worth and value is based on two truths that will never change: God created me and he loves me. Period. He proved his love and my worth through his saving work on the cross. He delights in me and is actively working to bring about his best, the best in my life. That’s a truth worth reading over several times. Go ahead, I’ll wait.
And another, “Surprise! When you say I can change you completely you really mean I can only change certain parts of you.” But what if what God changes a part of me I like? What if I can no longer hang on the pettiness that I use to justify my behavior and bad attitude? What if…what if I am really, completely changed? What then?
And those are just the major lessons from the first two chapters. I have 18 more to go.
So I suppose I could sum up this year with two words: Still Growing. (Or Becoming Kim…reads the same either way.) I suppose those are the two words I hope to sum up the remainder of my life – even though some days those words exhaust me. Other days they excite or convict or cause me to ponder…what will I be when the Master is finished? I don’t know for certain, but I can trust the hands perfecting me.
Thursday, May 21, 2015
Wednesday, May 20, 2015
Monday, April 13, 2015
I fell in love with watermelon radishes a few months back when my local market had them on sale. They are beautiful and mild and crunchy! Especially good as a delivery mechanism for tasty treats like hummus, smoked fish dip and guacamole, I also discovered they are AMAZING roasted! Don’t knock it till you try it…really. Ethan inhaled them, Riley gave a nod and I ordered more the following market day.
If you want to roast radishes, here is the recipe I used:http://foodandstyle.com/slow-roasted-radish-roots-with-fennel/
But that isn’t what I wanted to really share with you. Since I am always looking for a way to use the whole vegetable that gets delivered, greens and all, I researched radish greens to see what can be done with them and if they were edible. They are! So I made soup.
I found this recipe at epicurious.com. Click here for the recipe. It reminded me of potato leek soup with a peppery finish. Instead of stirring in milk after I pureed the soup, I drizzled some heavy cream on top because I thought it would be pretty…and you can’t go wrong with heavy cream. Since it was family dinner night and I was using Grandma’s china, I added a slice of watermelon radish for froufrou color.